Weird Things That Are Happening:
- Wrinkles! That’s cool, I guess.
- Speaking of wrinkles, my skin feels more dry than normal. Good for my acne, bad for the aforementioned wrinkles.
- My body aches more in places it shouldn’t.
- I can’t believe I used to take so many selfies. Wtf.
- Why am I so inflexible? I should probably do more yoga.
- Younger people seem really stupid (sometimes).
- Mini skirts I used to think weren’t short enough now seem really f*cking short to me.
- Did I really wear that 5 years ago?
- I’ve always been a lightweight drinker, but now I don’t even want to drink. At all. Is that normal?
- I’d rather spend my money on groceries than going out to expensive restaurants and fancy clubs/bars.
- Why do all of my bills seem more expensive?
- I enjoy staying home. A lot.
Things I’m Grateful For This Year:
- I started my own company, Oh Tiny Heart, and I am experiencing + learning the ups and downs of being a founder. It’s fucking hard, but it’s also incredibly rewarding. Where else would I get this kind of experience?
- I’ve learned to make time for the people who are important to me and who deserve my affection by virtue of their own awesomeness. True friends are the type who understand when you’re busy living that boss-life (or are simply embracing your introversion). These are the type of friends who, when you see them again for the first time in forever, it’s as if not a day has passed.
- I’ve thrown myself back into my art as a means of therapeutic escape from the chaos that is entrepreneurship, and the rewards I’m reaping from it (thanks to being brave enough to share it all) have been incredible. I feel more motivated than ever to pursue my childhood dream of painting and illustrating for a living.
- I’ve learned that when something becomes stressful or overwhelming, it’s totally fine and healthy even for me to put it down and return to it later with fresh eyes and a fresh perspective. I don’t have to win at everything the first time I approach it. It’s okay to come back and try again.
- I’ve found a better balance between work and life. I have a tendency to throw myself into my hobbies and pursuits, and I’ve learned that sometimes, I just need to stop working, and go give Mylo + Tony a hug. Work can wait.
- I’ve made new friends who keep me company during my long working hours alone at home by streaming regularly on Twitch, and several of them are artists like me who help me grow and challenge me. It was scary at first to begin streaming, but now, it feels like a second home to me.
- Mylo is a healthy one year old puppy, and I am so grateful to have him in my life.
- Boba and potato chips make everything better.
Things I Already Knew, And Received Affirmation For:
- Money comes and goes. Who cares? I’ve been extremely poor (homeless), and I’ve been wealthy (6+ figures a year). Currently, I run my own company, and all the money I make from it goes back into the business — but does that make me poor? Money isn’t everything. Experiences and adventures mean so much more than slaving away with hopes of riches. … But damn, when I do have money, it sure does feel pretty nice.
- It’s okay to drop people from your life who bring you down. Even friends who you’ve known for years and/or have helped you through tough times can end up being friends who turn on you and seek to hurt you. You don’t owe anything to anyone, especially not someone who makes your life hard to live. Life is too short to waste on people who don’t bring value to your experiences. Your time on earth is precious. Spend it wisely.
- It’s okay to jump from hobby to hobby. It’s fun. It’s relaxing. In life, we’re on a perpetual hedonistic ladder where we never seem to reach the top, and nothing ever keeps us happy for long. Sometimes, I find that by taking a few steps down and revisiting things that once made me happy before can still do so today. And that’s okay. Pleasure is in the little things.
- The expectations other people have of us don’t matter. We all die in the end anyway. Why live by someone else’s rules? I’m the star of my own fucking movie. Sometimes, we get a little too caught up in this whirlwind of meeting the expectations of our friends, people on the internet, our colleagues, parents, and even total strangers. Suddenly, what everyone else wants us to be becomes more important than who we want to be. Fuck all that. You do you, and I’ll keep doing me, and that’s all any of us need to worry about.
What are you grateful for this year so far? What have you learned?