This website wants to feature me as a Hot Babe. Should I do it?

I was just asked to model for a website very much like theCHIVE. It’s ranked fairly high globally and in the US as far as websites go, and after a bit of research, I’ve found it has a primarily college-educated and male readership. The spread they want to feature me in would label me as a “hot babe”, and we’d do an interview of sorts to help their readers get to know me.

Hmm.
I don’t know, guys.

A couple of things:

  1. Do I really want more dudes fapping to and following me online? Does that matter to me? Will it matter to me in the future?
  2. What sort of doors will this open for me, and are they the sort of doors I want opened?
  3. Is this the sort of exposure I ultimately want?
  4. My poor parents and family. -_-“

A buddy of mine joked recently that the number of men who have probably fapped to the thought of me is most likely numbered in the hundreds of thousands. My response was an immediate “GROSSSS WHY WOULD YOU EVEN SAY THAT TO MEEEE” — but also, with the amount of comments I get on Facebook as well as messages or emails begging to talk to me, I can safely assume his assessment is true.

And c’mon. I watch my analytics. I am fully aware that when I post photos from any sort of modeling gig, the traffic on my website jumps substantially.

Sigh.

Let me first just say: I’m grateful for my fans. Really, I am. If it weren’t for you guys and gals, I doubt I’d be anywhere near where I am today. I consider myself lucky to have reached this level of Internet “stardom” (though I admit to putting in a substantial amount of work to achieve this) as I am absolutely a “regular” girl next door — I go out with my friends, hang out with my family, have a day job, date, work out, slum around in pajamas all day, have bad hair days, acne breakouts, and experience the various ups and downs of life just like anyone else. And I wouldn’t say I’ve hit the genetic lottery or anything, especially in comparison to actual pro models out there, but I am perfectly comfortable in my own body and enjoy the way I look both with and without makeup. And if the swarms of positive and uplifting emails and complimentary messages flooding my inbox every day are any indication, I’d say I definitely have a reason to strut with my head held high and a perpetual smile plastered to my face.

But it’s not always fun and games. As an Internet-popular persona of sorts, the pressures I deal with in trying to satisfy everyone’s needs can be really daunting.

For example, some people expect me not to curse, and expect me to be this submissive, servile, docile little Asian girl who doesn’t react inappropriately to bad situations and always minds her manners. And I suppose, for the most part, I am those things — but I am also a passionate woman, and in rare instances, I do blow up.

Some people also expect me to respond to each and every single one of the comments or emails I get, and y’know, maybe when I was like, 19 or something, that was fine, because no one really followed me back then and I actually had the time to get back to every single person as well as the ability to write about whatever-the-fuck I wanted without people blowing up at me over stupid things like how I felt uncomfortable with a guy who went to prison touching my hair and telling me I smell good but who also happens to be blind and supposedly that makes me “ableist” even though as everyone who’s anyone will recall I dated someone with ONE HAND for like FOUR YEARS so maybe someone needs to get their facts straight.

Ahem.

Now that I have a gajillion people reaching out to me over the web, it is a lottery chance that I respond.

I’m sorry about that.
Really, I am.
I wish I could get back to all of you, but I just can’t.
I often find myself wishing I had my own manager to just tell me what to do, direct me this way and that way, manage my fan mail and coax me along — ugh. That would make everything so much easier!

:/

I get offered work and random gigs like the modeling feature I mentioned on a pretty regular basis, but I like to pick and choose between what I do based on the legitimacy of the folks I’d end up working with. I have worked with more than enough shady people in the past (the modeling and photography business is full of creepers), and after the experiences I’ve had, you can’t blame me for being more choosy with the work I accept.

Plus, c’mon.
If a website is going to feature me, it means I’d be advertising their stuff to my followers as well. That’s like, 40,000 people on Google+, nearly 300,000 on Facebook, plus wherever else people manage to gobble up my nonsense online (though not Tumblr anymore, obviously, since I accidentally deleted it like an idiot). So, when I’m offered work, I have to consider how that will affect my current following as WELL as the inevitable following to come. And, assuming I plan on doing the “Internet-Famous” thing forever, well …

Ohh decisions.

I think the biggest thing holding me back from modeling 24/7 is the fact that I am smart, and that I don’t want to be known for just my looks. It’s sort of a lowest-hanging-fruit thing — I can take the easy route and smile for the camera and rack up them dollas just being pretty, or I can try to become well-known for the things I actually enjoy and feel make me me.

It’s the reason I push my art so much. It’s the reason I write so much. It’s the reason I participate in business panels and consult startups and companies to help them better plan their social media strategies — I don’t want to just be a “pretty face”, and it really bothers me to think that this is the image I might be projecting to the masses. But it’s tough to find that balance because I do enjoy modeling, and I do enjoy being in front of the camera. So what do I do, y’know? How do I handle that?

Guh.

I’ll figure it out.
Also, I need food right now.

So, uh …
Peace.

peace This website wants to feature me as a Hot Babe. Should I do it? * heycheri sherilynn macale

Later gators,
Cheri

  • Errol Apparel

    I lost it at reason #1! hahaha.

    • http://www.heycheri.com/ Sherilynn Macale

      Run, Errol. RUNNNN.

  • DARRYL SMITH

    YOUR BETTER THEN THAT.

    • http://www.heycheri.com/ Sherilynn Macale

      This.

  • Charlie

    Ah yes first world problems at its finest. You should totally do it, the confidence boost from knowing that 30,000 male college students will be fapping over your “hot babeness” will be well worth it. Then you can complain about it the next day on your blog, reassuring us on how smart you actually are and how you wish guys weren’t always hitting on you all the time because it freaks you out. Yes we get it, men (even blind ones) find you attractive and let you know about it. Kind of hoping you find some new inspiration soon.

    • http://www.heycheri.com/ Sherilynn Macale

      Heeeey — you have the same name as my peace lily. :3

  • Tze Tuo

    If you are having so much doubt about all this, maybe it isn’t the best thing to go for. The type of exposure this could backfire on you in the future. You said you are smart and that you don’t want to be known just for your looks Does an interview on something similar to theCHIVE labeled as a “hot babe” give that impression?

    • http://www.heycheri.com/ Sherilynn Macale

      Everyone and their mom (including my own mom) has advised me against this, haha. It sounds like my gut was correct.

  • Marie

    Cheri!! I’ve been meaning to ask for awhile, but this post reminded me — are you going to be posting any more excerpts from your book at some point in the future? I’ve been hooked since you revealed the first chapter and was so excited when you announced that you finished it.

    On a slightly-more-relevant-to-this-post note, I personally don’t think it’s a terrible idea. I remember way back in the day you were featured on a couple other sites in a similar manner and it probably boosted your fanbase. It might mean some of the new reader influx will mostly be, uh, here for the pictures, but I’m sure there are some halfway-intelligent people on there who will follow you to read your thoughts like the rest of us do. If you’re worried, though, don’t do it. No need to stress yourself out when you’ll inevitably get other promotion opportunities that you’re comfortable with off the bat.

    • http://www.heycheri.com/ Sherilynn Macale

      HA! It’s not “finished” — it needs to go through SO MUCH EDITING. It’s in its first draft, if anything, and not even a completed first draft. I’m a perfectionist and I need to revise the crap out of it before I reveal much. However, I CAN post a few of the excerpts that I’m happy with if you’re really interested? :)

  • Danny

    oh wow.. this was great. thanks for the laughs! you’re seriously like the hottest babe ever.. lolololol

    • Danny

      LOLOLOL what a babe ;)

  • http://EyeForElegance.com/ lauriel

    Hi girl, cheers! No, we don’t know each other… but I’m not totally random. I just saw your lovely first impression on FB of your new roomie Kate, one of my ex-co-workers and friends (perfect description/narration, btw :) aaaaand… being checked-out on a Friday afternoon, I hopped around until I landed on your blog.

    Love your writing! I’ve been a long-time blogger, circa 2000. Most of my old writing is now private, but here’s a brief sample of my writing (from 2005): http://iridescent-glow.livejournal.com/ Over time, I’ve had various blogs (such as one about single dating adventures in SF – that was fun), and now that I’m married and don’t have crazy relationship adventures anymore, I’m doing a lifestyle blog.

    Anyway, I wanted to say hi because I enjoyed this post. I totally get what you’re going through; I went through the same! It’s silly, how people see a 1-dimensional impression of you vs the full person that you are, and how you actively have to work to prevent that from perpetuating (but really, can’t complain – it’s not the worst problem to have and it’s such fun defying stereotypes ;) ).

    Glad to ‘meet’ you and perhaps we’ll bump into each other in SF sometime~

    ~ lauriel

    EyeForElegance.com

  • http://www.youbeingsocial.com/ Jennifer Quinn

    Go with your intuition. Always.